Im so sad! Even though i larang u klua mlm ni smuer, niat i bukan nk kongkong u syg. i just dont want anythin to happen to u. i noe ur a grown up, but i just cant help worrying. Haiz. Why must u think that way of me? Ur words really broke my heart. No matter hw angry i am towards u, i dont tell u straight. I just keep it to myself. But why cant u do the same to me? Since u've said all the bad things abt me, i shall grant ur wish. I shall no longer keep a tight rein on u anymore. I will give u total freedom. I shall wash my hands off u. U wanna do watever u want go ahead. I seriously dah malas. Im upset to hear u say all these abt me. & pls stop sayin im using u. Im nt. Ur the only one i left with nw. Ur the only one i can talk to now. When i need someone to talk to, why cant i talk to u? Im really tired. I donoe hw far can i go alrdy. Im on the verge nw.

Your fuck up bossy, selfish girlfriend
Syasya

Baby, whatever im doing now, pls dont think that im trying to act like a big boss or trying to step on ur head. You should understand me, you should put yourself in my own shoes. Why am i flaring up when you're sleeping and didnt msg me or u forgot to msg me abt smth. Why the hell am i being paranoid when u didnt answer my calls or when ur busy with something i tend not to believe ur words. Its becoz im afraid! U cheated on me once and u lied to me abt smth that to me is fucking serious! Im always having negative thoughts abt u! When u didnt ans my calls, i will think that u might be busy talking to other girls. When ur sleeping and didnt met me, i will think that ur meeting someone else. Im really terrified that history might repeat itself do u noe tat? It makes me very insecure to be wiyh u. Every single day i will always be wondering whether are u being true to me or ur just having fun with me. Right nw, ever since things happened, my thoughts changed. I no longer believe in happily ever after. I dont believe in true everlasting love. It makes me scared to think abt the future, which is marriage. U pushed me really hard on the ground. U pick me up only when i ask u too. Im afraid of walking beside u nw becoz u might push me again. This time it might be much more painful. Im really scared of all these. When will u be like the old nasrul back? When will u be Giving me that sense of security back? I see nw as thou ur nt tat serious wit me. Ur taking me for granted. U dont take the initiative to meet me. Its always me that will request to mit u then u will meet me. Why must it always be me? U no longer want to talk on the phone wit me. I know where i stand. Im not that important to u anymore. I am only a gf of urs in name, the very demanding gf of urs. The one who is very bossy and likes to step on ur head. Im really disappointed in u!!!! Dont blame me if one day my patience is alrdy at the finishing line.

Dear Aisyah's Bloggie



Its been almost 16 month me and Aisyah are together and its really been an awesome journey for us.
Last time i am one of those teenagers who really doesnt care about anything at all and just likes to have fun and i caused alot of trouble to everyone i loved in my life,but all that really changed because of a girl ive met.She changed me to a better person,ive learned to appreciate others,control my temper,avoid problems and many more. She is really a unique girl that is really hard to find these days. Her love for me is really one of a kind and the way she treats me is simply just perfect. She really is the perfect girl that any guy desires and im proud to say that im with her. And this girl's name is Nur Aisyah Bte Salim.
Shes been thru Good and Bad times for me all this while. Even when i thought that all hope is lost and i felt like giving up is the only way to do it, she is there to hold out her helping hands to pick me up even during the darkest of moments. Last time i often broke her heart and even betrayed her love,this is the scene whereby 90% of the girls out there would just give up and just leave a guy like me. But Aisyah still stood strong and resisted all the pain i put her through.
Now ive really sworn to myself that i would never ever broke her heart and try to make her happy till the very end because she really deserves it. The sacrifices she made for me is definitely not-repayable by me. I am thankful that I found someone who can be faithful to me.
Every single day when i woke up,i will think of her and all that she's done for me and i would often hate myself for all the pain i put her thru. For that i am really sorry dear and i know this words arnt much but i promise u things would defintely be much2 better now and i really hope that we would make it till the end.
I know that there is still alot more to say about her but i guess i will just stop here. To everyone out there that thinks negatively about her,think again cuz u guys really dont know her that well. Nur Aisyah,Im really thankful for all that u have done for me. I really appreciate u in my life and i really hope that everything doesnt stop here. We will make it till the very end dear,this i promise.
I love u so much Baby and i will always do till my last breathe. Till death really do us apart:)



By Yourstruly,
Nazarab^_^

I wish that things would be like the past again. You're no longer giving me that much attention anymore. Today, your birthday, when you're with me, coincidently your stomach in pain. Vomitted blood, need go to toilet etc. But when it comes to going out with your other friends, no more pain. Happily can go fishing till late night. Didnt msg me that much. HELLO?! I took urgent leave just to celebrate your birthday. I thought i can just celebrate happily with you. I am bloody fucking disappointed and upset till now!! I really hate the way we are now! I FUCKING HATE IT! Why cant you treat me the same way as you did in the past? Now you leave me alone while you enjoy with the accompany of your siblings. PLS I BEG YOU, I HATE THE WAY WE ARE NW! I HATE THE WAY YOU'RE NOT GIVING ME ATTENTION. Yesterday when i was really in fucking pain, where were u? U promised me several times that you will meet me after work at night. BUT WHERE WERE YOU? Stop giving me hopes! Stop! ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS! Don't just say, do it! I AM TRULY HEARTBROKEN!