Out of the blue, I could almost recall every single nightmare that happened last year. Painful, scary, hurtful.... Every 13th used to be a memorable moment but ever since then, I hated every 13th. The scar is still here. I can still feel the pain. Its been a year now. Every where I go will always remind me of you.... Reminds me of what you've done to me.... Every pride and dignity of mine you've diminished. Yes, people can say take it as a lesson learnt. But its easy for them to say. I have no more trust and faith in having a relationship now. NONE AT ALL! You have brainwashed me too much to the extent that I will always think negative towards a guy without knowing them well and giving them a chance to prove that there's still a minority of them who is not a cheater and not a sucker.

I am so afraid that history will repeat itself. At this very moment, I just need a warm hug... And comforting words to say that I am not alone..... I miss having that someone close to share every single thing with.... Autophobia....... :'(