Baby, whatever im doing now, pls dont think that im trying to act like a big boss or trying to step on ur head. You should understand me, you should put yourself in my own shoes. Why am i flaring up when you're sleeping and didnt msg me or u forgot to msg me abt smth. Why the hell am i being paranoid when u didnt answer my calls or when ur busy with something i tend not to believe ur words. Its becoz im afraid! U cheated on me once and u lied to me abt smth that to me is fucking serious! Im always having negative thoughts abt u! When u didnt ans my calls, i will think that u might be busy talking to other girls. When ur sleeping and didnt met me, i will think that ur meeting someone else. Im really terrified that history might repeat itself do u noe tat? It makes me very insecure to be wiyh u. Every single day i will always be wondering whether are u being true to me or ur just having fun with me. Right nw, ever since things happened, my thoughts changed. I no longer believe in happily ever after. I dont believe in true everlasting love. It makes me scared to think abt the future, which is marriage. U pushed me really hard on the ground. U pick me up only when i ask u too. Im afraid of walking beside u nw becoz u might push me again. This time it might be much more painful. Im really scared of all these. When will u be like the old nasrul back? When will u be Giving me that sense of security back? I see nw as thou ur nt tat serious wit me. Ur taking me for granted. U dont take the initiative to meet me. Its always me that will request to mit u then u will meet me. Why must it always be me? U no longer want to talk on the phone wit me. I know where i stand. Im not that important to u anymore. I am only a gf of urs in name, the very demanding gf of urs. The one who is very bossy and likes to step on ur head. Im really disappointed in u!!!! Dont blame me if one day my patience is alrdy at the finishing line.